Wow! It's been a long time. Well since last time I picked up rank, Corporal now, pronounced alcoholic and an abuser of it, lost major weight, cut my hair short and highlighting it. My daughter, Viktoria, is doing awesome. She turned 3 in April. Don't have much of a love life. It's all Marine Corps and Motherhood. Sometimes those two do not go along. Anyways, here's a little something that I thought of just now(i'm in a emo mood!)

I hate me,
because I can't trust.
I hate me,
because I must lie to make others believe I'm fine.
I hate me,
because of what I've done, have done and been.
I hate me,
because I can't hate those who hate me, but hate those who love me.
I hate me,
because of my own uncertainty.
I hate me,
because people say I am special to them.
I hate me,
because of all my emotions I feel.
I hate me,
because the wants and needs that I have.
I hate me,
because of my own incompetence.

Nothing special. JUst how I feel right now. Thinking of self pronounced loser.